fakers

ytd just hungry so went to buy food to eat since chemist two period no teacher..

she say i know its wrong yet i do it.. I know she's looking,yet I purposely did it to make her angry.. she ask what happened to me.. why wan to make all the teachers angry.. all of them had been saying bout me. why i become so rebellious.. izzit i don like her. so i purposely wan to make her angry. i did made her angry but unfortunately after she reach home she forgot everything.. ytd she didnt call me it doesn't mean she'll leave things the way it is.. what happen.. what made me liddat.. its obvious something happened as my result drop suddenly while always it maintained at the top.. she won't be angry with ym if she did it but only me cuz i'm a prefect.. got prob at home? stress?. she ask me tell out.. she know i won't say anything.. cause she know i'm that type.. and i find it hard to trust ppl.. she ask me to learn to trust ppl.. keep everything to myself one day i'll explode


its obviously seen now im exploding already.... she keep asking me to tel.. or izzit i wan her to call my dad.. she keep saying..yet i kept quiet.."so if i say i call your dad, you'll say , CALL la, rite?".. still i kept quiet.. she kept asking me why i did that.. what are my purpose.."giving you penalty won't affect anything also .. if you're me.. tell me wad should i do to you"... tell me what happened to you.. or you need me to call your dad and talk to you so you'll tell out..

she told me there's many others that care for me.. that, i know.. evenso ntg can be done
she ask me to write down and email to her..
because of my result.. she say i'm giving up on my studies d..

a lot running through my mind when she said all of wad she wanna say.. when she's done i went to wash my face.. she call ym.. she ask her wad happen to me.. why my result liddat.. am i having stress.. did something happen at home.. and then ntg else... its totally unfair

since form 1 teachers pick on me.. i can trust NON of them

the past is still haunting me.. my form2 nightmare runs through my memory.. i can never trust anyone even FRIENDS especially... no One! even mum betrayed me!

last time i would complain alot.. but get scolded back in return.. fight with bro.when parents around.. he win.. in the end.. i got tired of all this.. and just kept quiet.. bro had his way and wadever he does i just remain silent.. i frequently came home crying but remain silent bout it.. then they notice my secretive character... yet its too late for them to only realise and change things

someone companied me till i reach home.. when i reach home dad's car was not there.. he went around searching for me.. tat time i din bring phone to school yet.. that time.. second chance was given to my parents.. i told them wad happened.. i told them i wan to change school.. dad say wan go school sue that teacher..but it was all just bird talk.. i didn't mind.. but parents say next year form 3 only change school.. but yet.. its also just bird talk.. then they say form 4.. but till now.. i still remained..here...

bout this techer case.. they say probably its my fault.. so just forget bout it.. fine...then bout the changing school thing they say left two three more years only.. just finish it up.. damn...

cuz follow fren.. i came to bK.. but still.. it was at bk.. i got dumped by these "fren"

this is also the place i see ppl with two faces.. ppl who steps on me.. use me.. to get to the top
I called this "jinkak".. just being used by tat jinkak person.. decided not to tell anyone bout wad she did.. let her do what she want.. let her be with her(class monitor) fake stories with her beloved teacher

this morning
I dreamt I was crying non-stop..
was hurt by friends again
I was so alone
in a classroom, I sat alone
I cried alone.. everyone just looked at me
just stared at me with their sickening eye
I hate it...

high school IRR Charity Run

at 1st can't attend for this run
but find a way out through it though
and in the end manage to go ^^
woke up at 4am
lied on bed and waited till 4.30..
went to wash up...
then quickly finish up my acc hw >.<
at 7 sharp! finish my hw le.. whoosh.. done a lot..
quickly get ready and went out
hmm my auto gate lock.. key in parents room..
went to get my key to open the small emergency gate
*twist twist* *turn turn*
weird... the lock doesn't wan to be unlocked ==
in the end i gave up.. and guess what
I got out of my house by climbing on my house fench
-.- luckily no one saw.. if not i'll be mistaken to be a thief !
was rushing~ and shuen say she's alone..
woot.. luckily as i reached the bus was juz arriving..
get on the bus and there were juz 3 person on the bus
the driver and a malay man about age of 22++
within 5-8 min.. i reached the school..XD quite fast
hmmm didn't knew where's the place though...
called shuen.. she was out cycling with tan pulak ==
so i walked around~ ooo ! spot a bk!
went in and spot rocky! she drove here with her mum though.. chun
>.<
helped rocky to unload the stuff from the car...so many things..
before running we did some "exercise" conduct by eric..
then when wanna run d.. can't spot tricia and shu ee
then shuen say she gastric.. hmmm so din force her to run
let me alone.. tak tau wan run not TT
then saw ma juniors.. ~.~ juz run with them la...
at 1st walk with them.. none of them running +.+..
so company them walk lor.. suddenly gladys jio me run
@@ suprising... haha.. so run lu~... we run run run non stop..
till suddenly pass market there.. run run run till..
O.O she's nowhere to be seen d ...
half way running into a narrow corner .. suddenly got a siao siao indian uncle kacau
==... in front of me was a boy about form 3 or 4.. he got freak out and quickly run with me..
-.- kacau punya uncle... luckily din come near me if not he SEI!=x
O.O pass somwhere around my house.. I saw many many MONkey on the house roof!!
about 15!! gosh!! called Sen Chen.. ask him come and take pic of it
manatau he din pass there.. go cycle other place==
ooo then i spot Andy Koh..
that day panas -.- kinda regret running.. thinking.. why did i run and not join those not running 1
run half way .. suddenly heard someone from behind called
omg.. ! i thought its xiong.. quickly CHaoz!!!
thought i lose that siao kia.. manatau -.-.. its BABI and he caught me up
-.- i stop running and walk...
throught out the way i thought babi will continue running..
manatau.. he followed me till reach high school
along the whole way.. he keep talking non stop..
bising giler.. BABI......
keep hitting me with his smelly towel ==
reach le receive free 100 plus..
while waiting I kept walking around...
got support bk stall alot.. buy some stuff...
dunno what to do.. saw shuen busy ..
then sallyn company me ~ follow her around...
in the hall we took some pic ..
after that dunno wad to do le..
plan to go kp.. hmm.. so me and shuen hang out at high school a while
oh! we played the big ice.. throw up high high and see it drop down
*poop* break into so many small pieces.. kinda fun.
those who's miss it.. too bad xP...
then me and shuen decide to chaoz d.. chew kit company us half way though
reach there le.. forced shuen to eat.. gastric punya fella still duwan eat-.-
then went to kp walk walk...
shuen suddenly grab my hand..
-.-...................
was kinda tired though.... mayb woke up too early xO....
reach home le went to bath~ then keluar makan.. uncle treat.. lolx..
ate alot-.-.. pui po....

some pic from IRR

the badge.. got two of it for free.. one from sallyn another from sir anthony


love this pic^^ ..

competition~:: sickness

this year got involve in so many things
dunno why also.. dunno why I got chosen also

represent school for cross country... then came back lose~
haha every year the same thing.. juz once during form 2.. won a MSSD medal for kumpulan category de.. after that no more lu~



this year when represent school for cross country... I was having fever,flu,leg pain (dunno why) .. hmmm cuz have to "wakil" for the cross country. I went to see doc... quite long din go see doc d... xD... swt... banyak med that she gave.. leg de also got pill @@....

after this I represent my class for school anti dadah poster competiton..
theme "masyarakat madani tanpa dadah" so can't draw unsur negatif thing ==
draw half way I gave up.. then go out from the place..then go train my ahli for marching saringan..xD
today juz went to represent for school poster competition ==......
went with shuen and 2 more form 3 girl.. don like the indian form 3 girl..cheng =x
go chung hwa school.. its a newly builded school... wuuu kinda nice...
saw a group of taekwandos~
swt...we got to draw on a BIG piece of paper.. not art paper
but a much bigger one.. around the size of two combination art block..swt...
its was my and shuen 1st time..

restless

next morning~.
haix... tiredly went on to school
=forgotten to fill in my bottle with water.. brought an empty bottle to school..=

*got down from car *
saw yM ..(gosh..she's gonna bully me again..haix)
juz went on... she called me... I din chap le... don feel like layaning anyone now..
reach class..............GOSh.. So many Hw!! all last friday de hw..sei..i'm doomed..

today got competition to do slide show for "anti-dadah"
hmmm our school became the host... many school came... all send 3 representative..
three school "chicken out" though...
chung hwa , batu Unjong and HIGH SCHOOL.. OMG..xO
got to stand at the main gate there "sambut" guest...
kinda fun though .. standing outside playing around with ying,jiun and tirzah
later on all went in to the computer lab d...
5 prefects became the pemantau .. aka.. "KEPO"

A , WQing, Ying, TJiun and CYen... tirzah went back to class d.. xO so kuai~
feel too tired to go back to class... wanna rest.... 4 of my buddy were using com to practice on their "VB" test.. I'm the first one in the class who has done it though (wakakaka)
as they were using.. i sat on the floor..lean on the wall.. and slept... wuuuu

teacher suddenly say got a competition.. to design 'broshure'.. tOMOoro.. swt. always last minute only tell....
5 representative from 5Sc3 and 5V1 class... hmmmm tak tau buat.. but just enter la..haha
-.- swt... today miss TANSC scold me.. i did the peka but din do the experiment
I half way talking to another teacher bout the kinabalu house thing she came and interupt and scold me say why din stay back while others stay back to do it
SWT... like I know have to stay backk she din even told me..
blah blah blah she went on with the "cheng" face of hers...
nvm....juz..sabar.. let her say what she want..
then duwan chap her d.. continue on with my beloved pn zu naidah
1.00pm only enter classroom... again.... hw lai liao.............wuuuuu....
enter class... hug sushi (Lind)...

then sat down.. haix.. thirsty~

sushi -: what time you slept yesterday?!
A -: er... dunno...hehe
sushi -: you see lor!! told you to sleep early d! duwan listen
A -: I can't sleep lerh...
sushi -: you see lor you see lor!!

then I told her bout it~ talk finish d.. fern was waiting for me.. as she wanted to tell me something...
fern told me her story~~ (hmmm kinda interesting... this siao zha boh)
later on PK period le....
I went back to my place... but beside me was 3 fellow buddy (Ym,fern and HSan) without text book.. oh well ... share share with them la
YM, as usual..the noisy 1.. kept talking.. and fern wanna continue telling her story to me.. so just listen... but also got listen to what teacher talking in front

CIk Norliana -: Shi Teen! bentangkan! penatlah cikgu nak mengajar kamu semua
A -: *shocked*
Cik Norliana -: masa wakil sekolah merentas desa kamu diam sahaja tapi dalam kelas
bising pulak
A -: *even shocked* cikgu mana ada!

nvm.. juz read..... kinda easy to bentang though.. haha bout "stress"
faktor :kurang keyakinan diri... ok everything went smoothly...
later on balik~ sat public bus~
reach home wan sleep d~
*reach upstair*
lay flat on bed..

gosh... today received a msg...
"hello.. is this kak shi teen"
Omg..xD... ooooo this reminds me of someone .. a junior that came to ask for my number during school sport day... hahaha... she told me someone wants it de.
that time din bother to ask her who was it though

hmmm this junior who msged me called "shuhada"..lol... kinda cute though ^^
then sushi suddenly ring ring me...
ask me izzit i'm busy.. haha.. cuz din reply her msg...
then lastly she told me
"remember to eat and wear your spec ah"
... lolx... siao po....

-die d.. still haven touch my homework.. still not yet ReSt as today edi so TIReD-

MGs and COnvent IU day coming le...feel like going
din go this kinda thing before....
asked shuen shuen.. she go only I go .. haha

ouch it hurts

swt...stomach kept hurting..
tak tau apa pasal..
morning saw shuen msg.. haha trying to lighten up my day
told her my stomach pain but guess she's at school d..

yesterday can't sleep..though I was very tired... but in the end fell alsleep
i reach eng ann for physic tuition by then was kinda late
wanna go et to register..
pakat with zen to go et together de le...
hmmm but since he's at mamak so I go alone 1st.. cuz rushing for time~
but he reached Et after 2 minutes
swt.. didn't knew there were so much thing to fill in the registration form.. took quite a long time to fill everything up..
after filling everything up.. there goes the price.... RM110.. OoO oh gosh.. when I saw her adding up all the sum ~ I was in a shocked... but luckily I brought enough.. left RM7 though.. TT wuuuu.. must claim from dad already.. hehe ..xD
then she say "I wan your photo ah"
OoO oh gosh... photo??? I dun have nei ~.~..
then later on we walked back to delta.. sei sei .. 8.00 already..
zen walk kinda fast -.-
then later on he stop by a while at mamak...
he ask me to go 1st.. so I went on and saw shuen near the staircase there...
both of us stop and feel the cooling air for some while .. went up to class
during the class my mind went blurred.. see the question also blur blur..
-saw flashy light outside then came the roaring sound- *raining*
dunno how to do the physic.. so kept silent and try to think.. but was thinking other thing.....
then I continue on with my work.. still can't do.. sei sei d la...
trying to focus~ wooooooooooooooooot!!! finally get to do 1 question le!!!
ei.. but different working with teacher's one == hmmm dunno mine right or wrong..
so juz rub and copy teacher's working....
later on I finally can do some question d ^^
then see phone... 10.00 already woot.. so fast! can't believe it...
*pop!* OoO... GOSH.. phone no battery!!! ==

-reached downstairs-
Amy -: Angel company me go mamak .. I haven eat lerh.. very fast 1
A -: er.. I see my dad come already not *looking around* (no sign of dad's
presence).. ok..kia...
*spot shuen*
A -: shuen! wan go mamak not ..
shuen -: go mamak zhuo muo..
Amy -: I haven eat lerh company me la..
*about to go mamak*

(ei.. that looks like my dad... OPPS.. it really its my dad!)
A -: opps my dad come d.. bye bye !! (amy&shuen)

Pa -: haiyo can't see me ah
A -: ya lerh you're too white! (seriously.. my dad wore white pant and white
shirt.."tai ci" cloth..xO)
you're too short ma! (oppps =x~)
Pa -: haha no.. its you're too short!
A -: NO lerh!!!!

~.~ gosh.. reach home.. kinda hungry.... take bread.. put butter.. then put some sugar.. xD yumm!!! then mum say got durian... hmmmmm ate 1 biji... then feel hungry again... do butter sugar bread again..xD

last school sport day

yesterday was my last school sport day
woke about at 4 smth..searching for hp..
opps NO battery..sei sei.. quickly charge.. read my messages and reply every single of it...
hmmm plan to wake at 5.30am to prepare the paint to paint on my marching member face later on but somehow I went online and check on my pet at pet society (gosh! kinda "hardworking" to *pia* higher level with classmate fren) then play xdo~
whoops... 5.45 d.. still haven bath and prepare my stuff.. sei sei...
quickly went to bath.. grab the poster colour , brush, name list....etc.
oooo and not forgetting my wings! its was made by the form6 from my blue kinabalu house~ they were so kind and nice to help me prepare all the item for marching!!
all was their idea.. and i love the wings!! it for me to wear in for the marching ><









thx sue li, cheng khee and the gang ><





6.50 reach the stadium le.. got down from the car and saw sushi (yeah! she came ><)
we went to look for place to put our things down.. swt.. she choose the most top row of seat.. Sallyn, Pei Sze, Li Shan, Sue Yan and Jaslyn came!!!!! >< I miss them sooo much!!! it've been 2 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the jalan kaki for 1500m event start 1st.. good good.. got time for me to set up all my ahli.. then my QUEEN got the headband with a butterfly on it.. aww she look sweet!
we trained for the last time and "suan pian" test test see my voice loud enough for the back to hear it not.. (sei lor.. not loud enough! keep trying and trying)
then the event start d.. with my wings and head thingy on me..and the flag..OH! i even drew stuff on my face!! one "K" and the other side two lines.... I feel so nervous lerh..1st time doing this thing but I just do what I'm suppose to.. tak tau my kawad ok not as always I only command and din train with my member xD..
holding the flag and doing the "tadbir hormat" gosh.. its the worst....
then went on with the bacaan ikrar for sukan de.. I'm thinking am I the only weird flag holder that went to the front with the wings and everything..gosh..
finally ended.. Cheng khee wanna take a pic with me with my wings but too bad teacher was rushing me to be prepare for my race.. awww sorry Cheng Khee :(

the race went on with 100m 1st.. so I 've the time to rest a while.. really tiring.. used quite a lot of "qi" to command loud loud and to hold the heavy flag..(the way to hold it the "right" way made my hand shoke the whole time during the bacaan doa and speeches.. but yet have to maintain holding it in that way)
I quickly ran UP to the HIGHEST floor where my bag is.. lol.. quickly change my shoe.. then feel very thirsty.. YM pass me a drink and say "drink it!" not really bothering to know what's inside I quickly drank it.. GOSH.. the taste BITTER and UNpleasant!
oh DAMN.. I quickly find somewhere to split it out.. went around and found an empty container.. immediately split it all out.. she gave me caslberg!!!! DAMN!!! and she was laughing there!! argh!.. then sushi pass me her 100 plus.. I drank it and quickly went down where teacher was looking for me..
(argh! still had the beer taste in my mouth!!)

under 18 only got 7 ppl participarting for the whole race event XO gosh
KB 001 - Mirosha
KB 002 - Khoo Neelia
KB 003 - Sue May
KB 004 - ME!! xO
KB 005 - ah yap
KB 006 - shuen
KB 007 - sue li (awww 007!!!)

my 1st race was the 400m.. oh man.. I thought 200m would start 1st..
got no strength.. but juz run.. reach half way.. sei.. no air.. juz run.. got 4th..
lol nvm still happy cuz can contribute mark to my house^^ run finish le I straight have to daftar for 800m le @@... == ok lose faith d.. really need rest... know will lose d.. but juz run.. and got 4th again.. xO omg.. if only I can catch up a little bit more can get 3rd d...
run finish le.. straight rush to daftar for 200m.. OMG.. >.< GG!
nvm lo.. run la..xD... fuyoh~ everyone so fast.. kia lang... haha .. then I get getting 4th or 5th place ah... still happy! got marks...xD

then rest time lu~ band got performance (pheww finally man!!)
went to the washroom wash away the two line paint thats on my face (sue yan say like cat -.-).. and leave the "K" there duwan wash it away 1st.. keke....
then went to see shuen play the tuba.. wuuu nice nice^^
ok.. got energy le.. hehe... out of 5 race that I participate in I stil haven even get 1 medal yet.. TT sad lerh...
after the performance its my 4x400 race le... wuuushh.. thought 4x100 starting 1st.. but nvm la.. when to race lor...

4x400 -: 1st runner : Me xO
2nd runner : ah yap
3rd runner : shuen x)
4th runner : mirosha
kan cheong kan cheong.. *PORRRRRRRR!!!*
"wuuu teacher press the horn d.. RUN AH!!! OMG.... run till half of the stadium d.. I'm at the last place!! sie lor sie lor!!!! nvm !! run ah!!!!!!! "
(run 3/4 of the stadium d.) -:
"ei... where's everyone.. O.O .. nvm run 1st run 1st ah yap waiting in front"
pass the steel thingy to ah yap d.. "phew.." (looking around) "ei! they still running o.. omg.. chun!"
by the time all of them can't catch up d.. ah yap run quite far d.. kekeke xD
its an advantage for shuen as she juz finish her performance juz now.. blow the tuba sure use a lot of "qi" pity her TT... but still she can run!!^^ geng
our last runner mirosha.. huiyo.. sure so fast..when she reach, 100m behind still can't even see the other opponents..xO...
VEEEEEEEEEEEEEE very happy le finally get 1 medal! gold tim! x)
okok~ no time to celebrate so much le.. next i went to prepare for my 4x100m.

4x100m -: 1st runner : ME
2nd runner : sue li
3rd runner : sue may
4th runner : Neelia

woooo.. lagi kan cheong this one.. last race of my day d... must get something!!
again 1st runner I've to be alert with the *POOORRRRRRR* sound..
run run run~~ "ei.. where's sue li?!!"
(swt.. someone blocked her.. damn ! she's not suppose to cut into our lane though she run finish d.. srew her!) then finally I can drop down ..sat there a while.. din faint though..xD .. when I got back to my member.. they told me we got 2nd place
^^!! Gosh! COOL!!!

got some time to spend with Sallyn and the gang le while the teacher play some games which the form 6 plan de ^^
it has been long since my last chat with Sallyn.. miss her so much.. I'm still (always ><) wearing the ring which she gave to me and Li Szhen as a symbol of our friendship ^^ we chat as much as we can and I told her who I like ><
^-^ wan her to be one of it who know it from me.. wish Li Szhen was with us too TT

time to give out the prizes le... but Sallyn and the rest not staying to watch who's the winner le.. wish she could stay longer though.. took pics with her and sue yan (wooo scary sue yan xD) and we hugged and said goodbye
-: I miss you alot Sallyn
and i'll always be -your forever, sharky- :-

after giving all the medals.. the results I've been waiting for..
and the winner for the marching goes to. . . . .
KINABALU
OMG!! I was SOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!! went to take the big trophy still got one hamper somemore.. both hand holding there two heavy thing!! WUUUU!! all our effort had not been a waste ^^ unbelievable!!!



and then came the overall winning result...
whoosh.. this 1 VERY kan cheong....all went silent.. when they annouce the 2nd and 3rd place ., our heart beat got even faster.. -kan cheong- then....
KINABALU!!!!!!
WOW.. this time we were shouting and screaming even louder.. !!
very long our house din win le
we couldn't be much more happy than ever before!!!
sue li took the trophy I pulak took the heavy hamper
then after that we went to our members..
me and shuen were holding hands and jumping about. LOLX... ^^
as usual, we take pics here and there >.<



Cheng Khee jie jie and Me! ^^


when the stadium was about to be empty.. me and shuen stood on the VIP place.. and then we shouted >< hehehhe it was fun! ! then I called Sallyn..
"SALLYN!! we won for the marching!! we even won for the overall race!!!"
(I was shouting over the phone >< sorry Sallyn..)
after when I off the phone.. she send me this msg...
"I'm happy for you gal.. Real real happy.. although I left with kinda sad juz now but hearingyou shout i'm damn happy"
^^ thx Sallyn.. I'm happy too!

=can retire from kinabalu with ease le^^=