fakers

ytd just hungry so went to buy food to eat since chemist two period no teacher..

she say i know its wrong yet i do it.. I know she's looking,yet I purposely did it to make her angry.. she ask what happened to me.. why wan to make all the teachers angry.. all of them had been saying bout me. why i become so rebellious.. izzit i don like her. so i purposely wan to make her angry. i did made her angry but unfortunately after she reach home she forgot everything.. ytd she didnt call me it doesn't mean she'll leave things the way it is.. what happen.. what made me liddat.. its obvious something happened as my result drop suddenly while always it maintained at the top.. she won't be angry with ym if she did it but only me cuz i'm a prefect.. got prob at home? stress?. she ask me tell out.. she know i won't say anything.. cause she know i'm that type.. and i find it hard to trust ppl.. she ask me to learn to trust ppl.. keep everything to myself one day i'll explode


its obviously seen now im exploding already.... she keep asking me to tel.. or izzit i wan her to call my dad.. she keep saying..yet i kept quiet.."so if i say i call your dad, you'll say , CALL la, rite?".. still i kept quiet.. she kept asking me why i did that.. what are my purpose.."giving you penalty won't affect anything also .. if you're me.. tell me wad should i do to you"... tell me what happened to you.. or you need me to call your dad and talk to you so you'll tell out..

she told me there's many others that care for me.. that, i know.. evenso ntg can be done
she ask me to write down and email to her..
because of my result.. she say i'm giving up on my studies d..

a lot running through my mind when she said all of wad she wanna say.. when she's done i went to wash my face.. she call ym.. she ask her wad happen to me.. why my result liddat.. am i having stress.. did something happen at home.. and then ntg else... its totally unfair

since form 1 teachers pick on me.. i can trust NON of them

the past is still haunting me.. my form2 nightmare runs through my memory.. i can never trust anyone even FRIENDS especially... no One! even mum betrayed me!

last time i would complain alot.. but get scolded back in return.. fight with bro.when parents around.. he win.. in the end.. i got tired of all this.. and just kept quiet.. bro had his way and wadever he does i just remain silent.. i frequently came home crying but remain silent bout it.. then they notice my secretive character... yet its too late for them to only realise and change things

someone companied me till i reach home.. when i reach home dad's car was not there.. he went around searching for me.. tat time i din bring phone to school yet.. that time.. second chance was given to my parents.. i told them wad happened.. i told them i wan to change school.. dad say wan go school sue that teacher..but it was all just bird talk.. i didn't mind.. but parents say next year form 3 only change school.. but yet.. its also just bird talk.. then they say form 4.. but till now.. i still remained..here...

bout this techer case.. they say probably its my fault.. so just forget bout it.. fine...then bout the changing school thing they say left two three more years only.. just finish it up.. damn...

cuz follow fren.. i came to bK.. but still.. it was at bk.. i got dumped by these "fren"

this is also the place i see ppl with two faces.. ppl who steps on me.. use me.. to get to the top
I called this "jinkak".. just being used by tat jinkak person.. decided not to tell anyone bout wad she did.. let her do what she want.. let her be with her(class monitor) fake stories with her beloved teacher

this morning
I dreamt I was crying non-stop..
was hurt by friends again
I was so alone
in a classroom, I sat alone
I cried alone.. everyone just looked at me
just stared at me with their sickening eye
I hate it...