Shuo Ni Ai Wo (say You Love Me)

Raining let the dust and vapor disperse the memory
I quietly lean against you
Looking at you looking at those mottled sweetness
Love you but trap you and trap myself too

That unavoidable subtle wound of mine is in dull pain
The sweet excuses of you that could not be quit makes my vigor decadent

Saying you love me becomes a kind of greeting
Why not let go earlier
Let the love dropped let the ground full of scarlet

Saying you love me becomes a kind of torture
No need accompanying me walking (the path of life) till the end
I cannot undertake your promises

induction day 3

ntg much for today..

just listen to briefing from this and that department

then from the principal..

later on briefing on the rules and regulation

next, our class for the 1st two semester..

I'm in A-1.. should be good right?

since its the 'advanced' class

but the rest of my new friends there were in the different class as mine

goshh....... at first thought of changing to A-2..

since, Orange, denise and Tricia is there..

but .. aiks.. different book then mine..

I thought theirs are the 'advanced' book too though

sigh..

Wing Wei is in the same situation as me though

she's in A-3 class, and alone

Constance and Alice is in the same class though

A-2 but its 'certificate' not the same like Orange's A-2 which is 'diploma'

hope I'll somehow manage to 'survive' in this class for 2 semester ..x.x

went to buy the materials we needed, RM168 in total

lots of stuff and heavy..

back home did this and that

drove to eng ann bought panadol for sis

after finishing all the works..

maid suppose to be back today

but somehow she didn't whereby she so-called 'run-away'

I lay flat on my bed, slept

funny thing is I dreamt that my maid is back

LOL... crazy enough...

-its been for 3 night straight I had bad dreams...

horror night~-

induction day 2

reach the early as usual

and the 3rd earliest again

looked at the two person who's there

*lol.. I thought they said 'SHORTS'... maybe they're one of them that don't know shorts are SHORT*

xD haha..evil me..

Orange ask about my whereabouts..

then in a few minutes time she reached

why come so early?

what to do.. mum got to work~

we got bored and Orange SUGGESTEd to 'pick' Wing Wei up since she just stayed nearby..

thought she might be alone..

and I just AGREED..

therefore , ORANge its not my suggestion from the start..xD

orange showed me where she lived..

most of the houses there were where the students lived with the others

we reached wing wei's rented house..

but she's nowhere to be seen..

orange felt tricked..xD

then we just walked back

a few minutes later wing wei appeared..

lOL.. and then TRicia came..x.x

new friend today ..

Alice

20 years old (orange had a partner now ..xD)

from Miri, Sawarak

short hair, snow white~

Siew Chin

18 years old (she looked mature)

leng lui, tall, thin. had make ups when we played futsal =__=

DEEEE

18 years old

from Perlis

shoulder length hair, cheeky =D

our member of 6 ppl now become 7

Orange

Angel

Siew Chin (constance)

Deeeee (Denise)

Alice

Tricia

Wing Wei

my group all girls.. and today we're playing FUTSAL....

at Sport Planet

=___= haha....great.....

1st match ..vs with a group of GUYS

and guess what.. I'm the only 'MOnkey' running around

-.- exhausted... and of coz~ lose.. 2-0

thought ok lose.. OVER...

but, NO.. there's 2nd round.. x.x argh no strength left..

no choice.. just play.. this time vs with 4 guys 1 girl -__- still of coz lose

its AGAIN 2-0

out of energy.. ~ wanna faint wanna puke...

but we had fun ^-^ win or lose doesn't matter

but runner up and champion got a medal T____T

finally, group photo..

me, the shortie, were called to the front cause can't see me xD

time to go back~

exhausted..~

reach home still need to do this that -.-

saw orange I/C whereby the pic was her when she was 12

omg.. very big size and fat

and I looked at her now

OMG.. LENG LUI.. is this i/c really HERS??!!!

GOSH!! haha impressive~

induction day 1

just slept for 1 hour

and I'm off to college for my 1st day of induction

reach there the 3rd earliest..

blur and very quiet

don't know anyone there..

but slowly don't know how..

get to know this girl, Ying Ying (orange)

at 1st we've been silent..

till we suddenly went for lunch together

she treated me -.- aiks.. I'm so gonna pay her back

we started talking alot..

my first friend..

20years old

from Perak

out-going, very emotion, playful

tomoro gonna hav a 'sport' activity..

short, T-shirt and sport shoe

we got to get in a group of 6-7 people

choose on our own (don't know anyone)

before going back 2 of the member from our group came and talk to us

erm.. at first I'm like *omg.. SWT*

both of them are funny yet "adorable and cute"

Tricia & wing wei

one started asking

Tricia : what's your name

Angel : erm .. you can call me angel

Tricia : *move hand doing circle on her head* oh the Angel!

Orange : erm .. you can call me orange

Tricia : *both hand shaped C and joined * oh ORange!

Angel & Orange : *swt man*

while exchanging phone number..

Wing Wei : erm.. how to spell orange? O-R-A-N-G?

Orange : haha yea

Angel : *swt.. er...orang? as in... PEople?* *sms-ing*

Tricia : *looked at me* you don't want me ah?

Angel : *shocked* oh oh.. sorry.. I'll type in my number for you

Tricia : *giggle* ok.. I thought you don't want me

Tricia : they said tomorrow wear shorts , long or short one?

Angel & Orange : *SWT??!!* shorts are short

lol.. we coincidently said it together at the same time..

shared and talked quite alot with orange

been sms-ing and 'gossiping'

now she's out with her 'ex'..

hav fun and good luck xD ...

lets have fun tomorrow~

yet to find out more about this girls

lOL..'future classmate'

I didn't knew that this is what my friends actually see in me..

if its so..stop hanging out with me happily ..

don't get close to me since you felt uncomfortable..

lies..

witz

fear

I'll be facing my biggest fear tomorrow..great..hope it'll work out just fine..

sigh.. I'll tremble for sure..just like it did happen before..

I dreamt and I wept ..

It was a sweet moment

yet bitter in reality..

is this good? or bad?

I don't know..

had been confuse and lost for the whole entire month of dec

drowning

x.x when will I ever catch my sleep back

going off to bed now...

which most of my frenz would be 'shocked' as its still 'early' for me

-...- no choice.. tomorrow I still need to wake up early AGAIN..

T__T exhausted..

but at least I manage to sleep now

rather than being tired and not be able to sleep again

need to clear off my mind asap

I need a hug

I need someone to hear me out

will you be the one..?

farewell+birthday

reached ms house by 1.30pm

why?? WENG SHEN's fault..... -__- ask me 1pm reach there

I thought I late... manatau...I'm the earliest..

at first dunno what to do there...

but did and receive alot of phone calls

rock call then weng shen call then call andy then call here there again(pokai)

shuen went to bath her dog.. haha its cute and adorable

went here and there.. alot of 'spot' in her house brings back memories and flash back to me..

at last got things to help out..

firstly.. cut the carrot.. then..one kind of vege..which is cucumber (i think)

then wai zen the 2nd earliest to reach

the carrot was HARD!

still trying to cut it..xD

cucumber?o.O

around 3.45pm.. rock chan call me.. say the guys taking a long time to buy the cake

me,wai zen and shuen sat shuen's cousin car and went to kp to 'guide' the 3 drivers to shuen's hse (adwin.tommy and rock chan)

-.- the cousin siao.. drive so fast.. rock manage to catch up.. tommy and adwin , unseenable

reached..ntg much to do..wait the bbq thing to set up..

ok edi.. makan~

later on went the room and play..

got weird jelly with a lot of kind of 'taste'

I got toothpaste and popcorn =D lucky me

panda got 'vomit'..xD.. he's reaction when eating it was damn funny

then uncle brought wine in.. mostly everyone is drinking

andy offered and I tried a bit for the first time

x.x omg.. EEEwwwww!! the taste... ..argh..x.x

went to take soya to drink.. but the one I took become 'taufu' already (spoilt)

ARGh...fine.. just bear with the wine taste..

later on we moved on with the cake celebration of shu ee's birthday!

-___- they smashed her face onto the cake

her fair, face..rainbow colour..

then all of them started to play with the cake's cream

everyone was 'wiped' wit the cream on their face,hand,shirt,leg..

EXCEPT ME.. I was CLEAN =D

went back at 11.45pm..fuu..kinda late

reach home..can't 'piu piu' or 'sms' anymore

laid on bed and was fast asleep..............

gayish ganCC + le king

dramatic shu ee+rock chan

hAppY birtHday ShU Ee

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHU EE!!!!!
being 18 the earliest among us
hope you're happy yesterday ^^

..crap.. i'm dead beated...
really exhausted..
thought I could have my long rest today
but unexpectedly I've to wake up early to take an 'english' test
argh... was feeling blur and unprepared...

got 4 paper... one english test.got multi choice..nvd..

got essay somemore ==..mind totally blank...

then need draw portrait... (again..i don't like..damn!)

then got two paper is ask about stuff.. then got quiz..x.x

join 9 dots with three lines...x.x...

then got one they draw something then you must think how to continue with it

took a long time.. was the last to finish...

can't think...

yesterday was fun..too bad for those for missed it
will post it later on..mind's dead now

SOrry ANdy... I didn't meant to hurt you

wide awake

went to watch chipmunk today

last minute jio ppl

surprisingly andy can come

sis watching movie wit alvin

so tag along.. brought brother along too

treat my brother eat flavour twist mcD ice cream

then treat him popcorn and drinks during the show ..*pokai*

andy came 'late' but when he got in .. just in time .. lucky guy..haha

the show was funny, cute , NICE!!

its teaches us lots of lesson too

the main was

do not think only for yourself but also for the one around you that cares for you

care for each others like how other cares for you

don't just dump those close to you just because there were better choices or benefits

been sleeping for only 2-3 hours for many days continuously till today
been really sleepy now.. but 'someone' challenge me to sleep at 8am
yesterday the challenge was to sleep at 6am.. this time extend..=...= fine...
tomoro going for an event whereby need to wake up early..
and I'm gonna be SO DEAD

I just can't sleep..I don't know why...
slept late yet need to wake up early~